Sweet Dreams

Dragon tales and the "water is wide". Pirate's sail and lost boys fly. Fish bite moonbeams every night, and I love you.

Godspeed, little man. Sweet dreams, little man. Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings. Godspeed, Sweet dreams.

The rocket racer's all tuckered out. Superman's in pajamas on the couch. Goodnight moon, we'll find the mouse, and I love you.

Godspeed, little man. Sweet dreams, little man. Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings. Godspeed, Sweet dreams.

God bless Mommy and match box cars. God bless Dad and thanks for the stars. God hears "Amen," wherever you are, and I love you.

Godspeed, little man. Sweet dreams, little man.
Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings.
Godspeed,Sweet dreams.

Forgiveness

Hi Honey,
So how are you doing? Good, I know because your in heaven. I hope you play everyday and never want for anything. I think about you everyday. I even dream of you. Some are good, most are bad. I can't really remember them but I always feel this emptiness when I wake up. I guess it's because your not here and I feel guilty. Guilty because I have to move on and try to be happy without you.

Lately I been trying to figure out what happened. I keep thinking that I did something to cause your death. Everyone keeps telling me that I didn't but how do they know. I was carrying you and there was no visible signs of anything wrong, so what am I suppose to think. I need to know what happened to you. I will never be able to forgive myself if it was my fault. Why did this have to happen? I miss you so much. I just don't know what to do anymore.

I love you Brody. Send Mommy some hugs and kisses today. I really need them.

First Of Many

Hi Baby,
First I have to say how much I miss you. There is not a day that goes by that I wish you were here. This will be the first of many letters to you. I'm not sure how often I will write. Mainly because it hurts. It hurts not being able to tell you these things in person. It hurts that I never got to hear you cry, laugh, or call me Mommy. I hurt all over and it will never go away, not till I see you again.

I decided to start this now because I believe today was the day, one year ago, you were conceived. It happened so quick. I never thought I would get pregnant so soon. Daddy and I had just talked about getting pregnant right after Christmas and three weeks later, there you were. I just wish you still was here.

I love you. Daddy and Jocey love you, and miss you dearly. XOXO, my Angel.