Forgiveness

Hi Honey,
So how are you doing? Good, I know because your in heaven. I hope you play everyday and never want for anything. I think about you everyday. I even dream of you. Some are good, most are bad. I can't really remember them but I always feel this emptiness when I wake up. I guess it's because your not here and I feel guilty. Guilty because I have to move on and try to be happy without you.

Lately I been trying to figure out what happened. I keep thinking that I did something to cause your death. Everyone keeps telling me that I didn't but how do they know. I was carrying you and there was no visible signs of anything wrong, so what am I suppose to think. I need to know what happened to you. I will never be able to forgive myself if it was my fault. Why did this have to happen? I miss you so much. I just don't know what to do anymore.

I love you Brody. Send Mommy some hugs and kisses today. I really need them.