Hello Brody,

How was Christmas? I bet you had a wonderful time. Wish I had been there. I've been thinking about you a lot lately. I think it's because you were conceived this month 2 years ago. Can't believe it's been that long. I wish I could go back in time and cherish each day I had with you. If I had only known I would have done things so differently. Why didn't I do things differently? I guess I shouldn't dwell on it because there's nothing I can do about it now.

I want to ask you if it's OK that I don't come to grave as often as I use to. I still want to visit you and be near you. It's just that I know you're not there. I wish I knew if you hear me when I'm there. I come to your grave and I'm looking for any sign of you. Nothing ever comes.

I guess Mommy is discouraged and so tired. I'm tired of believing you will give me anything to hold on to. You're gone and I have to learn to accept it. It's so hard baby. I don't want to. I 'm fighting it with everything I got, but when is enough an enough. Please tell me Brody. I miss you so much I just don't know what to do. I love you and I don't want you to be mad at me. So please forgive me if I don't visit as much as I use to. I still love you and you will always be in my thoughts. Forever.

Just wanted to tell you MERRY CHRISTMAS! Mommy will probably be very busy the next few days so I wanted to make sure I told you now. Hope you have a wonderful Christmas in Heaven. I love you sweetheart. XOXO

I'm so sorry I haven't written in so long. My overtime is now over and I will have more time. As you know your Great-Papaw left us and is in Heaven with you. I hope you two are having fun. You make sure you give Great Papaw hugs and kisses for me. Your Grandma misses him and you lots so send love her way too.

There's another angels baby with you now. Her name is Lily and she's the daughter Lisa. Remember Peyton Birthday? Well that's Peyton's little sister. You have fun playing with them and tell them their Mommy misses them a lot.

Did you see your Christmas stuff? Mommy going to put out more after she gets to the store. I thought it looked real pretty. Especially the little Christmas tree. I wish you could be here for Christmas. It just doesn't seem right. I guess it never will.

Please send hugs and kisses my way. I really do need them today. I love you sweetheart. Always and Forever.